Ok, another new start? But isn't that what each new day brings?

The alarm clock rang at 530 am this morning. I turned and thought about turning it off, but I had made a commitment to myself that I would go to the beach. I dragged myself out the door and I headed to South Park to see the sunrise. A couple passing showers on the way brought doubts into my plan, but I continued.

I made it to the Bach and parked and still no sunrise. I met some friends , and walked with them, but the sunrise was not not happening. I left my friends and headed back towards my car when the sun peaked out of the horizon. It was beautiful. I kept seeing people I knew. I kept taking pictures . As I walked  I thought how I had missed the mornings that I would get up to just do the same thing for so many years. On the way back I ran into Mario , this man I know from the beach for so many years. He always shakes my hand with his left hand, his right is always in his pocket. After speaking to me and catching up he pulls out his hand and he is holding a rosary I made for him many years ago. What a surprise and a blessing that not only has he touched my life but I touched his life also. The people I ran into today we're all reminders of how we are all connected. No one comes into my life without a purpose and I am thankful to I sometimes get to find out that purpose before they leave me.

I was reminded to not be so hard on myself . To enjoy the journey . That there is always tomorrow or start anew of a mess up today. But the most important thing that I felt in my heart that yes it possible to reach one's goals no matter had difficult it might seem. Each day can be magical, but I have to see the magic and be part of the magic too.

Is it too early to,worry ?

I could not believe that I had not posted anything this year yet. I was so faithful in posting my thoughts. Not that I thought many would see them but that I had them recorded for future reference. Again, I feel I am in a slump. My resolve to eat a healthy lifestyle has twinkled, and I know I want to get back to it  but it is just harder then I anticipated . This morning I made plans to get up early and see the sunrise on the beach and do some miles, but I slept in. I just feel I am drifting with no place or goal to aim for.

My job is sufficiently stable and my mom is relatively  healthy but I see her slowly deteriorating and so I worry that I won't be able to take care of her as I should. I worry, I eat. I am also having one of those milestone birthdays in a few months and I worry that I can't do the things I use to do before. I know it is easier to say that God will take care of everything ., but still easier said then done. As I wrapped my head around leaving a a leaner lifestyle and making some changes in my life, I started to do something I had thought about but had never seriously done it. I started to write a book, is it fiction, nonfiction. I don't know , I know that I just write a s write . At the end I will figure what spin I will put on it. Or even if it is worth publishing. I am also developing some short term goals and long term goals. Moreno that at a later date.

I have enjoyed my blogs and they have proven useful,not on,t to me but to others as well. Let me know if you enjoy them, hopefully with your feedback I can write about topics that are not only relevant to me but also interesting to a wider reader base. Keep me in your prayers as I keep you in me. And have a very Happy , Safe 4 the of July!